Saturday, January 31, 2009
Someone PLEASE...wake me! This has to be a dream.
The past 3 weeks have been nothing but a horrible nightmare. My mom went into the hospital being pretty sick. They ran some test and found out my mom has stomach cancer. They thought it was the kind that could be cured...after some more testing they found out she couldn't be cured and had about 2 weeks left to live. My mom's lungs began to give her some trouble and she ended up on total life support. The cancer has now spread from her stomach into her liver and now into her lungs. I am nothing but a mess. I have prayed so much at my mom's bedside. Asking GOD to not take my mom. She's only 58 and has so much to live for and so much to do still here on earth. I spend about 10-12hrs a day at the hospital, walking around hoping for some kind of miracle but I don't think it's going to come. I feel so numb sometimes...living in the inbetween. I feel like I'm standing still but everyone else is still continuing on. I've cried so much that my tears can flow no longer. I have be blessed enough to be able to tell my mom everything I've always wanted her to know. I've told her how much I love her and what a wonderful mother she has been. I am so greatful for all the support I have gotten from my friends and family. I am still spending as much time as I can with my mom until her final breath... where a piece of me will be lost forever.
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Char! My heart is breaking with you! And I have often wondered why things happen the way that they do. I'm praying for a spiritual healing for your mom and your dad. Through all of this God is going to work for His glory! Even if we don't yet understand it! Call me! Love ya! I'll come see you tom or do you want to do lunch or something???
I will be walking by your side through every step
I always forget that my name doesnt show up on this, but you knew the anonymous comment was from me love you so much crystal
My heart is weeping with you, there are no words to express my sorrow, I will continue to walk by your side and embrace you. Remember your mom is an angel now and she will watch over you , and take care of you the way you took care of her! All my love Crystal
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