The waiting game...

It's the weirdest feeling to have your life frozen in time while everything else has to continue around you. The children have to go to school. Your husband has to work. Things need to continue to get done. I still continue to live life but in the back of my head sits a frozen piece wondering what's next for me. I know each of us have numbered days here on earth. I know that tomorrow my number could be up and I wouldn't get a say in it but to hear someone say you might have the same cancer your mother just died from... it makes your whole world stop!

Today, in church our Pastor was talking about bad things happening to good people. That us as Christian were never guarantee a perfect life. That we are here to go through trials and tribulations. This is when we are going to find ourselves the closest to God. I can't tell you how true this is. This year has been one of the worst years of my life but I have found myself reaching out to God and feeling his presents like I never have before.

I am unsure of what lies before me in the next few weeks but I know that God has a plan and I need to follow it. God, my family and friends will be here to help me through no matter which way it goes. So... for now I am playing the waiting game and trusting in God.