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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

This weekends service...

This weekend at church the topic was dysfunctional relationships. The pastor talked about what if you could push the easy button and change the three people in our lives that have hurt us the most. Would we push the button? Does someone else think of us as one of their three people they would use the easy button on? He also talked about forgiving this person and reconciliation. Now this is where my heart was getting tugged on. They had a video of a couple who chose to forgive and reconcile with a family member that hurt them deeply. The reconciliation took place 6 month before the death of this family memeber. I have children who have family members who have really hurt them and I have tried my hardest as a parent to never let that person come near them again in any form of contact. Well a couple weeks ago we got a phone call that the biological parent of two of my children was on his death bed. He's last request was to talk with his children before he died. Now bear with me because this story gets a little crazy. Our first thought was Hell No!! you had your chance and you screwed it up plus we know what this kind of contact would do to our children. So we let it go for a day to think more on it and came up with the solution that we would let the children decide. So they wanted to call him up to say goodbye. We called the hospital and talked with his nurse and found out that he wasn't dying infact he was getting better and going home soon. So we felt deceived and like this was just a way for him to try to get back into their lives. Well the next day a week after Chyna died, our cat was having a seizure for over 5 hours. I thought for sure he was going to die. As I sat there watching my cat suffer and remembering Chyna a week ago dying. I felt that God was trying to tell me something and I just wasn't getting the clue. My husband and I both prayed about this and we both had this overwelming feeling to found out about the children's dad. Maybe he was actually going to die and God wanted the children to say goodbye to them. So we called the hospital again and found out that he was doing better but he had turned for the worst their dad had a massive stroke and his body was starting to shut down and it was an only matter of hours before he would die. We knew right away that we had to let the children talk with their dad. Their dad wasn't able to talk but he could hear what they were saying. They forgave their dad, told him that they loved him and most importantly asked him to except Jesus into his life so that they could one day see their dad again in Heaven. The next day we received the phone call that he had died a few hours after talking with them. Was their dad waiting to be forgiven or did God want to give him one more chance before he died to except Jesus? What ever the answer is... we felt we did our part. O yeah and our cat that was having the 5 hour seizure is totally back to normal. I am no longer asking God to prove to me that he exist. I have faith in him that he will get my attention and point me in the right direction, if only I stop and trust in him. Is there someone you may need to forgive or reconcile with? Don't wait until they are on their death bed because it maybe too late. Remember the Lord forgave you so you must forgive others. Colossians 3:13